What the hell am i saying?!

"Depravity" by: Eric L.

I was left alone amid the animosity
When even I was a haggard
And was truly very far from purity
On the bar-stage of the heathens

I saw myself within your eyes
My unfulfilled cowardly desires
And in my heart I broke the ice,
The permafrost, my heart's mires

This icy swamp it was my home
Within it's depths here I brooded
Like an evening's sudden change in tone
From solemn dark to sleepless black

You were mine and mine alone
I watered the plants of desire for you
While with my mouth I captured your moan
I wanted for you this day to rue

I wanted you to moan and squirm
I wished for you to cry for me
To taste your tears on your cheeks so firm
And to feel you burning under me

I relished your sorrow
And desired for tomorrow
Because as for me
Unlike you I am free

I took your innocence
You are mine and hence
In your eyes I am evil
I am loathsome like a devil

For that I did not care
You were a gentle nightmare
Your scent is intoxicating
Like alcohol drinking

I loved your feel
And your clothes I would peel
From your body possessed
By the devil undressed